First week back at work

Daffy, just wanted you to know that mommy is thinking of you. A little more than an hour to go with day two of us being apart. Today was a bit easier and I haven't felt as guilty for leaving you but I'm still not ok with it and will break down crying at anytime. Last night when I picked you up I didn't want to put you down. You fell asleep on my chest for about 30min until your daddy got home and up until 10 that night when you went to sleep I held you. I missed you so much. This morning was nice because we had some more time to bond and while I was holding you you kept staring at me and smiling it was very nice.

Daddy picked you up from Daycare on Friday and brought you home. That was the first time you and daddy spent total alone time. He did a good job. He was feeding you when I got home from work

First day at daycare and first day back at work

Oh Daphne today and the days leading up to today have been hard. Last night (11/28/10) I didn't/couldn't go to sleep until almost midnight. You were up from 3:40 to after 4:30 and I woke up at 5:30 to get ready for work. Getting your bags packed last night for daycare was very hard and once I finally laid down for bed I cried like a little baby thinking about having to leave you today. I got you to daycare about 7:15, I had to go back to the house and get your milk that I had forgotten and finally left you there for the day at 7:30. Saying goodbye to you was really hard, I feel like I have put you in jail. All morning I tried not to think about you because it makes it harder to get through the day. I was going to come visit you at lunch, but you were asleep and I didn't want to wake you. It is almost 3 and I can't wait until five when I can come get you. I don't think I will put you down once I get you. I feel like I am missing out. Well enough for now, the more I think of you the more I miss you and I don't want to cry anymore. Mommy loves you baby girl.

Week 3 to week 5

Daphne, you are so wonderful and so full of life and so opininated. You definently have mommas temper, it's so funny and so scary. You get so mad when you have to burp, change your diaper, get your boggers or take a bath. You are doing better with the bath part though. You are very stong and have been since you were born. At your one week check up the doctor was impressed with how well you held your head up and your ability to half way roll over. She said rolling over was something they look for a 4 months, so you are well on your way. I sing the alphabet to you everyday and count 1-10, I don't know if any of that is sinking in but I like to think it is.

Ok so I wanted to write to you at least every week but that just isn't happening. It seems like I don't have time for things any more so I will just write short little comments for awhile until things settle down.

You have one prominent dimple on your right cheeck it is so cute.
At one month, the first time I put you on your tummy, you held yourself up on your arms with your head up, moving it from side to side. That was the best day with you, I was so proud.
You like things your way, and you fuss until you get it.
Daddy keeps saying how strong you are and you are, you have a strong grip.
I love the little noises you make when you are first waking up.
Holding you while you sleep on my chest is the best.
I call you my little alligator/crocodlile when you are hungry b/c you start moving your head and trying to eat anything that comes close to your mouth.
Daddy laughs so hard when you try to nurse him.
I don't want you to have a paccy but if you keep sucking your little hands you are going to get one. Yesterday (11/28/10) you had your whole thumb in your mouth, it was so cute but I made you stop because I don't want you to develop a habit.
Uncle Tony loves you so much, he hogs you at all family gatherings, it is so cute.
You still have very little hair and I can't tell what color it will be.
At four weeks your 0-3months clothes are beginning to fit.
Almost everytime daddy changes a poopy diaper you poop on him and the changing table before he can get another diaper on you.
You are begining to like baths a little better as long as you don't get cold.
You still hate getting lotion put on you.
All of your cousins just adore you and drive me crazy wanting to hold you all except Brandon, he is older and hasn't held you yet.

Coming home/first 2 weeks

Wow Daphne, it has been two weeks since you came into this world. Time has flown by and it makes me sad that you are alreday two weeks old. The first night with you in the hospital was so short you didn't get here until 12:20 and by the time I got to our room and you got your bath at the nursery it was nearly 5 in the morning. That day at the hospital also went by fast, you slept alot and we had several visitors. The second night at the hospital was a little rough. You nursed every hour for about 15 to 20 minutes and with daddy's snoring, I didn't get any sleep. I was in tears when the nurses came to check on us Tuesday morning b/c I was so exhausted and overwhelmed by everything. They gave me some breastfeeding tips and told me it was ok for you to fuss a bit and I didn't have to pick you up and/or nurse you every time you made a sound. Well we finally got released around 11 that day and daddy and I were so excited to get to take you home. After loading all of our stuff and gifts there wasn't much room in the car for you and I, but we managed to fit. Daddy was so cautious pulling out onto the highway with you in the car that I wondered if we would ever make it home. Once we got on Pear Orchard Rd. (our road) I began to worry about you because you were so quiet. When we stopped at our driveway to check on you your head was bent all the way over to the side and touching your chest. We were so scared I started to cry I really thought you had died. I adjusted your head and rode halfway in the front and halfway in the back watching you the rest of the way home. Once we got home, Roscoe was so happy to see us, and very inquisitive of you. We let him come to the car and smell you and check you out. After multiple picture taking and cutting off our hospital bands we all laid down for a nap. Mommy and daddy didn't get much sleep though because we kept getting up checking on you to make sure you were breathing. For the first few days daddy and mommy kept shaking you while you slept to make sure you were ok.

We had our first outing that following Friday you were 4 days old. It seemed like it took us forever to get ready and then finally get out the door, but we did it. We went out to dinner and then to Walmart, you were a good girl and slept the whole time. Mommy rode in the backseat with you to watch and make sure you were ok. Saturday night we took you out to Iredell to meet some of you cousins. Everyone was super excited to see you especially Bit and Mackenzie. Mackenize was a bit rough with you but just was so happy to see you she kept wanting to hold and touch you. Bit was just like a little grown up holding you, you didn't let her hold you long though because you were hungry and a bit grumpy.


That following Monday was your first doctor's appointment. You had gained back your birth weight plus one ounce. The doctor said you were perfect! We then went back to Walmart, that was the first outing for just you and I. We did ok.

The rest of that week was priddy mundane and we stayed around the house alot, with some visitors coming over Saturday night.

Daphne it makes me sad how big you are getting already, you really are changing and growing too fast. I love holding you and watching your little face change and see your dimple! You eyes are grey right now and your hair, what little you have has not really picked a color yet. Sometimes it looks dark brown, red or blonde, who knows what it will be. Daddy loves you so much he can't wait to get home an hold you. It is so cute watching the two of you interacte and bond. We have just started giving you a bottle and daddy loves feeding you.