Daphne I want you to grow up to be a strong, determined, fierce, kind woman and my biggest fear as a mom is figuring out how to teach you all of these things. I want you to be respectful, independent and outgoing. How do I teach you all of these things when I'm not sure if I am any of them?
Ewww, I know that is something I can not do, I can not doubt myself in front of you, I can not point out my flaws and express my insecurities because I don't want you to learn any of those things. Not that I don't want you to know theses things about me or for you to think I'm perferct but I want you to not be insecure with who you are. You are beautiful and perfect now and always will be. I thought to myself this morning that I'm a sinner and I need to make some wrong things right and then I realized that you are totally pefect and innocent, you have yet to commit a sin. Do I think you will always be sin free? No, but in my eyes you will always be perfect and innocent.
I want you to be able to come to me when you have fallen or done something wrong. Wether it be you skinned your knee or told a lie or something more drastic like your heart has been broken by your first crush or you've tried alcohol, I want us to have an open relationship and for you to know there is nothing you could ever do for me to not love you.
Your 4 months old right now Daphne and there is so much fun stuff, laughter, trials and tribulations that we haven't begun to experience, but I welcome all of them with open arms. I wait for the day when you are hurt or upset and the only person in the world that can make it better is me. Not that I ever want you to be hurt or upset but being realistic I know those times will come and consoling you is something I look forward to.
You are this wonderful little person that I get to shape and mold and I hope I can raise you right!
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