Today is Tuesday, how I long for Saturday morning when I have nothing to do and can sleep as long as I want to. Seems like it is getting harder and harder to get out of bed each morning, I am so tired here lately. It is also physically getting harder and harder to get out of bed. In the middle of the night I don't know if it's from lying down or if it's contractions or what, but when I get up to go to the bathroom my stomach is cramping so much I can hardly move, let alone roll over or get out of bed. Every night daddy ask me if I'm ok because I am moaning when I move. Once I get up and move around the pain goes away, so that is good. Also I am very irritable here lately, and I hate being this way. I know I am being grumpy and unpleasent but I can't seem to quit being this way. I find myself apologizing to daddy quite often because I have yelled or griped at him for no real reason.
So last week and through out the weekend daddy was very sick. He had missed alot of work and was not eating. He finally went to the doctor on Monday and was diagnosed with a severe sinus infection. He was given some medicine and is starting to feel better.
Last Saturday was the baby shower and for the most part things were perfect. My good friends were there, family that lived close were there and a few people I didn't expect to see showed up. We were so blessed with all of the gifts that we received. It was more than I ever expected and now we just have a few small things to get. I went through all of the clothes last night and the only thing we really need will be some pants, size newborn and 0-3mths. I told daddy this and he said ok but lets wait until after she gets here just incase shes a he. Oh poor daddy, he is so funny. I wish that he would stop saying things like this because he is making me paranoid when I go to open something to wash and I think if I open this and it's not a girl I can't return it???????
I put your swing together, it took about an hour and a half and once I turned it on to check it, I found out it didn't work. I was so annoyed, because I wanted everything set up in your room and because I am going to have to spend another hour and a half taking it apart, then lugging it back to the store. Needless to say the swing is still put together, I need to undo it but I just haven't felt like it yet. Sunday we went and got the glider for your room, it is still sitting in the living room in the box, hopefully daddy will get to it soon.
I am begining to feel a little overwhelmed with everything that is left to do and with no energy to do it. I could probably put the hammer down and finish everything in one weekend I just have to make myself do it. The biggest thing that needs to be done is we have to find you a daycare, and that is also the hardest thing to do.
Every night daddy tells me, "I think Daphne is getting bigger." I love that he notices that you are growing, but that also means that I am growing. Oh Daph mommy was in a grumpy mood earlier, but it is begining to lift. Thank God for freinds, always be kind to people you, never now when you will need them even for a simple hello to brighten up your day. I love you baby girl and can't wait to hold you in my arms, even though I will have to fight for you from daddy.
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